'~WoNdErFuL 2 ThOuSaNd 6..

Tuesday, August 30, 2005
27/8 - 30/8: A Summary..

27/8 (SaT):
Was supposed to study for DDCT TT2 on monday..
but somehow was distracted..Loss of interest..
Got an invite to a church play at kallang..
Was supposed to go with my didi..
But in the end, i just not feel like going due to an upset in mood earlier on..
So when my two friends, Patrick n Priscilla call me out for fun..
I drop everything n just went to get rid of my bad mood..
Had dinner at KFC with Priscilla n met her friend Aaron..
Shan't comment much..
But he sure looks a great deal better when smiling..Hee..
Then Patrick arrives n we hang around while Priscilla n Aaron talk..
When they finish talking, we wondering what to do when Patrick suggest we watch movie..
So we chiong to the tix booth n grab 4 tix for Red Eye...
Miss a bit of the movie when we reach the cinema hall..
But that is ok..Not exciting yet..Haha..
It is supposed to be a thriller..or sort of..
I was not very glued to my seat until the end of it..
I must say the middle part is exciting, but not thrilling enuff for me..
Anyway, shan't say plot of movie..Too long to explore it..
Ending is very good n happy..at least no tears for me..YeA..
thanks Patrick, Priscilla n Aaron for watching the movie together..
Extra Thanks to Patrick n Priscilla for ya -All the best- msgs..
Would do my best de..

28/8 (SuN):
I spend my whole day working on DDCT..
And man, my revision is still not done yet..
Xian Qi msg to say she started on PMT already..
Man, adding stress to my under-rated revision..
Though i try to chiong my DDCT revision, it was still so slow..
Maybe due to distraction from hunger(my mum buying KFC for me, but will be back only after 3pm later..So i forgo my lunch..) , constant distraction after evening (stupid TV showing so many darn good programmes now..) and fatigue (ZZzz..wanna sleep..)..
Finally finish my first revision of DDCT at about 12plus..

29/8 (MoN):
Wake up early to do revision again..
Then reach sch n chiong revision for DDCT yet again..
The paper was manageable..
But i always have the nagging feeling that I'll fail the paper..
Sometimes it comes true, sometimes it don't..
Well, i have the feeling i might not do well for it..
But then again..How do i know?? Good Luck paper..
Hope u get marked by Mrs Angela Moghe, the lenient marker..Hee..
Start my revision on PMT for tml's paper...
But doesn't seem quite right..
Not concentrating again..
Y?
Cos i fall ill le..Sob sob..=(
Got Flu, n sore throat..
Sigh..
Retire early to bed with no effort being made to study PMT..
Leave it for tml 4am to chiong..

30/8 (TueS):
Took two 4mg chlorphenamine tablets b4 going to sleep..
The common flu drug docs prescribe to ppl..
Still, when i wake up..
My nose was blocked..thought it was cured..until..
a few hours later my nose becomes -runny- again..
Sigh..Shouldn't it have worked since i took two tabs??!

Went to sch early..but heaven really finish the revision..
Running nose all the way...
Saw Nan Kai at the table revising too..
He is running nose too..Sigh..
These days, ppl always get sick..
-Recover soon from all illness ppl-

We were discussing what can come out for granulation..
The highly -blocked- n disinterested topic of PMT..
Was spot-on actually..But i didn't make the effort of memorising it..
Cos i always dun believe in the questions i spot..
n it always come out..
Then when i believe it will come out..
It almost always not come out..SianZ..
make a few spot-ons actually..But shan't boast about it here...haha..

PMT paper was rather manageable..
Dunno why..Maybe cos i got study this time instead of the previous two times..
Anyway, i expecting borderline pass or fail..
So hope it is a borderline pass n above..Shoot above 30 if posible..LoL..

PA2 tml lo..
Somehow i began to fear it again..
Cos i always dun have time to do all questions..
Like who can do it within the time he stated?? Siao ah?
Surely need to skip some questions to do others..
Wonder what question(s) i will be skipping tml..?
And it is also the only paper i stick to using pen throughout..
Y? Cos practically no time to switch from pencil to pen lah..
Hope the paper isn't a killer...
I have fail far too many PA2 quizes to make up for it..
So i Pray, let this be good..good enuff to make me pass my PA2 in all..
Hope to get a C+ for this..Really hope so..
-Cross fingers n pray hard for a manageable PA2 paper-

=WiN=
PS: Tried my best to keep it real short =D

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 6:09:00 PM

Saturday, August 27, 2005
闭上眼默念3遍 Call My Name - 183CLUB/7朵花

《闭上眼默念3遍 Call My Name - 183CLUB/7朵花》

閉上眼默唸3遍
插曲:183club+7朵花
中文詞:柯呈雄
詞曲:jaimes/saxon/cavanagh,ronan/wright,andrew

希望你理解愛上你有多難
像童話裡的故事可惡的安排
明明兩個人都相愛卻偏偏遇阻礙
非得讓人痛徹心扉才能證明愛存在

我們如何找到出路通往愛的國度

閉上眼默唸三遍
call my name 我就出現
有時候寂寞難掩像不醒的夢靨
閉著眼數了三遍
你應該要出現但你卻又食言讓我看不見

如果你能明白這場相愛有多難
像童話中的傀儡口是心非
以為你找到了幸福我卻感到好無助
只能笑笑去祝福偷偷掉著淚

我們拼命想找出路通往愛的國度

閉上眼默唸三遍
call my name 我就出現
有時候寂寞難掩像不醒的夢靨
閉著眼數了三遍
你應該要出現但你對我食言不在我身邊

永遠究竟多麼遙遠為何我總無緣無法好好體驗
愛不像你跟我說的簡單像許個願

閉上眼默唸三遍
call my name and i'll be there
有時候寂寞難掩像不醒的夢靨
閉著眼數了三遍
你應該要出現但你對我食言不在我身邊

但你對我食言不在我身邊

=WiN=

PS:
This is my current fav song lyrics..
Really nice n touching..Sigh..
But sounds a little sad..
Everytime after listening to it, will sadden my mood for a while..
So do beware of its effects..
Oh..And if u wan sing this song at K Box..
Look under 7朵花..then u can find it..
Haha..LoL..

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 2:55:00 PM

The question has come to resurface..

The question has come to resurface..
-Can one live life to the fullest without love?-

As usual, in ponderness n searching for love..
After each unsucessful trial for love..
We becum a little dispare..(or alot)
A little disappointed..(or alot)
But strange thing is..
We keep on going on the trial for it..
And I keep asking myself..
Can I live my life to the fullest without love?
Till now, no answer has been found..
But no matter wad..I learnt a few things..
from my recent trial..

If u have been doing so much for someone..
and you dun think u did quite get a response from them..
There's only two conclusion..
They dun know about it..
OR they are pretending not to know about it..
The only way to know..?
Ask..Is all I can think of..

Thanks YY, for giving me a direct answer..
n not beating around the bush..
I really appreciate the honesty n truth..
No worries about me, really..
Whether we like it or not..
The world still spins..
Day still change to night..
Time still ticks..
Water still flows..
So there is really nothing wrong with it..
What I really must do now is to be prepared
for the TT2 and DPP exam..
All the best for TT2 & DPP exam to Each n Everyone of my friends..
Becos u're here..Can i share my Joy n Laughter n Fun..Kudos Friends..

=WiN=

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 10:59:00 AM

Friday, August 26, 2005
UnDeReStImAtIoN....

I had always been thinkning that my actions are not very obvious..
So no one would actually found out..But who knows..
It turns out that more than the no of people i expected,
know about it..
I have really underestimate the no of people
who will know about the secret..
The secret may be let out of the bag soon..
But i still heaven really get a chance to go out with her yet..
Maybe becos she is too busy coping with exams ba..

But wad really amazes me is that the first person
to know this is actually gladys..
Then adeline yap also know liao...but they nvr say out..
Then soon almost everyone in my class can tell who she is liao..
But they nvr did say i know ur secret..that is..
Until i ask them about it..
So the guys in my class like all know liao..
And the gals in my class i still heaven ask some of them about it..
but most of the gals in my class should have know liao..
So i wouldn't be surprise if the other class got at least 50% of them knowing it..

What i have been hoping to get is clues from her..
Surely with so many ppl knowing about this..
She can't have not felt it..
At least can drop hints ma..
If she really did drop hints, i can't really tell..
Maybe her hints are more subtle than my actions..
To the extend i can't pick it up at all..

Been getting mixed comments from friends..
Some are good, others are bad..
It all lies in the 50-50 range for now..
Everything is hanging on the balance now..
What should i do??!
If only she could just tell me aloud..

=WiN=

PS:
To all ya who know the secret:
Thanks for keeping it a secret..
I do know a secret is hard to keep..
And i did admire ur ability to keep this a secret for so long..
And thanks for all the comments u have given me..
I will take note of them..
Thanks again..

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 10:00:00 AM

Saturday, August 20, 2005
An enjoYabLe timE..

Well..Today..
Like any other saturadays..
It is looking to be gloomy for me..
Feeling so sian liao..Not becos of her of cos..
Becos i know i may not get to see her everyday after term ends..
Sian........

Well, was switching on my computer n internet to do research for my DPP PBL 5 last problem..
Yea..But then still somehow not v. gd mood..still want to shop n go out..
The time came when i received a call from priscilla...
She n Patrick wants to go out n have some fun so thought i could join them..
Man, was i glad to..
So i brought along a voucher to shop for clothes too..
Seems like cool man..
The store wasn't really great but i manage to get two clothes ba..
Two tees to be exact..With the help of priscilla n patrick..
Kudos to u two for helping me choose them..

Shortly after that, we went to 7-11 to buy drinks..
Curteosy of priscilla...hahaha..It was nice..
Thanks lotx priscilla...

Due to Priscilla's urge to expand her sweet voice to us..
We went to K Box to sing songs..
Actually, i was quite surprised that so many ppl were there..
We went to room 21..n all of us pay $21 for the package..8-11pm ..
Was quite fun to hear priscilla sing..
she sounds pro in most of the songs..
but some songs she still heaven performed to its requirements yet..
no worries, priscilla, work hard..sure can de..
I pick some relatively unfamiliar songs to sing..
n surprisingly..
i need the audio with me b4 i can perform up to standard..
So the funny..
but nvm..This is my first time..
so i learnt how to use the remote liao..KUDOS..
LoL, self-praising..Sigh..
Patrick seems to be there to be with us..
He seldoms sing..
But when he sings..
He did put in his best efforts to sing..
So, KUDOS to patrick too..
We shared our dinner in K Box too..
The dinner is too expensive..
The bill amounts to $107.80..
How expensive can it be huh?
Well, the room is cold..
Not all the songs are there..
As in those i can sing ones..
not all english artistes are there..
at least the english ones are few..
but was pretty suprise about the 183 club n 7 duo hua song there..
Was one of my fav currently..
Thanks for being my audience, Patrick n Priscilla..
我把我的第一次@ K BoX 献给了你们..LoL..
We go cheaper at weekdays k..?
So we can dun burst a hole in pocket for a 3hrs session..
Yup, i go improve my singing..n not pick rappy songs anymore i promised..
and i promised to try learnt some duets so can sing together..LoL...
Overall, i enjoyed the time with u all..Thanks for inviting me along..
Been too lonely at home thinking of silly thoughtds..
Thanks for all ya company..

=WiN=

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 10:21:00 PM

Sunday, August 14, 2005
Bewitched

Well, today, i was supposed to do my project work..n study for dpp test on monday..
somehow my heart n soul drifted elsewhere..
Somewhere where i usually think about when it come to work..
Sigh..My brain is receiving the -MoviE- channel again..
And impulse once again..rush me to contact pals for -MoviE-

Initially, we were supposed to watch maid at 4.45pm @ cathay causeway..Me, Patrick, Priscilla..
But even though they got two cinema halls showing the same movie at 4.45pm..
We still failed to grab 3 seats..Not even the first row..
WoW..How Packed??!
I initially thought..Who dares watch a seventh month movie during the lunar seventh month??
Darn..How wrong was i??
My friend caught it last nite (1.45am or so..)
So he said it was quite good for a local production..
But i still am a bit doubtful cos, the eye was a local production..
And my friends said it was hilarious..Though when i watch with another group of ppl..
There were generally more screams than laughters..Funny thing is i even cried..??!
Wonder why now also..LoL..anyway back to wad happened..

So they asked for my opinion wad to watch then..
So i decided for the trio of us to watch -BewitcheD-
Aw man...It was G.R.E.A.T..
I would give it 4 out of 5 starZ..
It starrs Will Farrel n Nicole Kidman..
AWW..Sweet Nicole..
The story is about a witch (nicole) who is tired of being a witch and promised to stop using her magic and start living without magic..
So, to do that, she moved out of the town filled with witches n warlords..
She ventured into the not so far away place..away from witches n warlords..
She had to used magic to get a house in that area..
She had to used magic to pay for stuff..(she swipe a tarrot card like a credit card..)
But, she hadn't use magic to sedue the guy (will)..
The down n out actor (will) was cast into a TV remake of the title..-BewitcheD-
He wanted a new face n found her (nicole)
He did not realise she was a witch..
But when he did realise about it..
He actually was confused..
Confused whether he was going to marry her or forget the whole episode..
But deep down in his heart, he knew he was so deeply in love with her that he..
DUN mind her being a witch!!!
So he chase after her..She was on a broomstick..
The ending??
Go watch it for urself =)
Hilarious it really was..

=WiN=

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 1:22:00 AM

Monday, August 08, 2005
8/8 Mr Humphrey Ko's B'day..

Today is Mr Ko's BirthdaY..
Yea..Happy B'day to U..

Went to TP with a super big card..
n a super expensive gift..LOL..ok la..
Lucky they can be stored inside my locker..
or else i dunno how to carry it ard..

So we signed the giant card during the breaks for PMT..
Since it was so big, several ppl can sign at one go..
I signed next to someone =D
Lucky i manage to nap that space..HeeHee..
Was so on cloud nine..after that..

The others also pen down their heartfelt thoughts n feelings..
But what really amaze me is that..
Every one is interested to know what present i've shopped for mr ko..
Fortunately i didn't wrap it up..
So the gift was past from ppl to ppl..
Haha..everyone just commented that it was simple..
But hey ppl..I shopped for two days b4 deciding on it k..
It wasn't a anyhow choose present k..

Haha..Lucky for one thing is..
We heard a lot of news that ppl brought stuff for him..
But he refused to accept..
So i decided to put our gift into the bag with the card..
n taped it together..
Well so how it goes??

It all went smoothly..
Mr Ko receive our card with so much sincere n warmth..
He even took the effort to shook all our hands with both of his hands..
Awww..How warm the feeling..!!
I guess he knew there was a bulge (gift) in the plastic bag..
but he give us 'face', so he nvr took it out..
Thanks mr ko =D

Left for home feeling so happy n tired..
And happy birthday to pei shan, whose birthday is coincidentally also national day =D
Happy b'day Pei Shan n best wishes =D

=WiN=

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 11:39:00 PM

Saturday, August 06, 2005
More personality quizes..

The Most Miserable
http://quizbox.com/personality/test11.aspx

You are basically a person who enjoys reminiscing.

You are a very emotional person indeed, easily influenced by people and your surroundings. For example, if society is sad about the death of famous people, you will share these sentiments, or when watching a sad movie, you will be so engrossed that you will end up being sadder than the main actors in the movie.

YOUR LOVE
Are you a very confused person?
Sometimes you like to be left alone.
Sometimes you want to be loved.
Sometimes you need him or her.
Sometimes you don't.
Does it sound familiar?

Winferd's comments on Quiz:
Oh man, 99.99% true!! T_T

The Animal Test
http://quizbox.com/personality/test12.aspx

Here is the analysis:

1) A kind of person you will be attracted to in a real life situation is those who have a split personality; cold as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.
2) In the process of courtship, the approach that makes you feel irresistible is being patient. Never giving up on you is important.
3) The impression you'd like to give to your lover is loyal and faithful.
4) One reason that would make you break up with your partner is insecurity.
5) The kind of relationship you'd like to build with your partner is that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner. A long-lasting relationship that you can grow with is important.
6) Would you commit adultery? Society and morality worry you. You wouldn't do anything wrong after marriage.
7) About marriage, you are quite pessimistic. You don't think a happy marriage exists anymore.
8) About love, at this moment, you think of love as a commitment for both parties.

Winferd's comments on Quiz:
Quite true =)

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 9:45:00 AM

Personality Quiz..

Get to know yourself better
http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Comments from Winferd:
the test is about 8O% true...
I'm not sure if I am ready for relationship and be serious about it since i aren't in relationship now..You are so right!! I really am afraid of failure and that is why most of the time..I do a mini '% failure test' on some decisions to make..But ironically, i like to pick challenging parts of a project to do..I hide my feelings behind a smile instead of anger..And you are so spot on that i HATE conflicts..Will DO ANYTHING to get myself out of conflicting issues..Especially those involving me...

=WiN=

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 8:34:00 AM

Friday, August 05, 2005
Today's the day!!!

Yea..Today's the day where all of us gonna check both student n personal e-mail..
The wyeth personnel will sent shortlisted ppl an e-mail giving more details..
all the best for everyone who submitted their cv n cover..

Yea..tired after a night's work of projs n pre-lab..
ZZZZZzzz..blog tml after e-mail check..haha..
wish me luck..!

=WiN=

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 4:05:00 AM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Wad a disappointing daY!!!

All went quite well today =D
except for the last few hours of lecture..
Which i proposed a -supposingly- gd idea..
To get a gift for a lecturer since its his birthday coming this monday..
He has been very good to us all..
so i thot he should indeed deserve a gift..
but there were some ppl who weren't happy abt it..>,<
though i dunno the reason behind it..
but i seriously was like dumbfounded at the stage..

Oh well, fine..
ONLY ppl who are sincere abt it, really likes him as a lecturer,
treat him as a wonderful friend..can share in the card and/or gift for him..
Those who AREN'T truely sincere..
oh well..u may just ignore it..
treat it as nothing happened at all..
doesn't matter for u anyway..

Feeling upset at the truth of reality..the turn of events..
The ugly side of life..I turn to my bed for solitude..

=WiN=
PS:
I aren't writing this with any particular person in mind..
Give it a thot before u dismiss this as a thorn to ya eyes..
For it truely reflects the nature of u deep down within..

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 10:43:00 PM

Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Ups--1/8 & DownS--2/8

Wad goes up MUST come down...

Monday..A bright fresh start to a new week..
after incessant naggings from the HEN @ home on fri, sat n sun..
Can get to see friends @ school lo..YeA..
wasn't running late to school but got shoo to sch by the HEN @ home..
Sigh, can't she just let me be me??!
Wadever to that HEN..
i check my e-mail @ sch, cos home can only use the 56k modem, which is really slow..
found out that i have some surprising e-mails..
1 from an author of a trilogy, the other from All Saints Home..
was really touched by both of the e-mails..
Wyeth sent me a letter to inform me that the results will be made known on 5th august..!
Woah..surely looking forward to it..

Tuesday..in the AM..
The HEN kept a close watch on what TIME i sleep..
DUN I HAVE MY OWN RIGHTS TO MY OWN SLEEPING TIME??
wadever HEN!!
wake up early to pack bag n left house early..
in case HEN wants to shoo me..
Reach sch pretty early, even got time to comb hair..LOL..
Xian Qi was the second to reach the tut room corridor..
and she asked if there was going to be tut quiz later..
I replied i dunno..guess not..
and spot on she really was..
There was a tut quiz after the tut..
and it really was hard!!!
It wasn't related to the tut we done b4 the tut quiz at all...
It was on topic 6 & 7..
Many of us dunno the answer..
But we just fill up an answer anyway..
DDCT proj went ahead smoothly..
PA2 lab was kind of smooth-sailing too..
HEN is nagging lo..
NiteZ..

=WiN=

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 11:30:00 PM

Short post abt fri, sat, and sun of last week..

Oh well, i enjoy long post..
But my broadband modem just spoilt!! --I can't believe it!! =0--
So gotta make do with short post for now..
When my modem is back..
I will post a longer one then..

Ok, so on friday, i got an e-mail telling me to prepare my CV, cover n yr1&2 result to send to Wyeth person-in-charge by monday..for SIP placement..Got down to doing it actually on sunday..
Friday: enjoyed bus ride and dinner with zhi jie @ bedok hawker centre..
though the bus ride..he did complain abt his strong dislike for someone..
which he showed strong protest against..shan't say who it is..
went home n meet my two friends online for NS completion online..
n play a little online gaming..
on the whole, enjoyable it is..

Sat: went to orchard to run errands for my -smith-..
then rush to meet a friend (volunteer too) for lunch at food court near tampines bus interchange..
off to All Saints Home at Tampines after the meal (lunch)..
manage to reach earlier than expected..
was assigned to a old folks who -rarely- loks at me..
even wondered if i can comunicate with her..
She is mdn Ooi..
My senior volunteer is celeste..a sweet n nice gal..
Who like to spin yarns that she later jumbles up n told truths instead..
haha..she's so funny..
anyway, her appearance helps to open a channel for me..
finally the old lady can communicate with me..^^
so we tok to her, play games with her..sing songs to her..
n later we head to the restaurant to eat..
okok, more like feed the old folks..
nice restaurant with a wheelchair bound friendly device..
manage to feed mdn Ooi some food, though she kept insisting she cannot eat n is not hungry..
yup, with the help of celeste lah..
haha..but it was much better improvement for me than the previous feeding experience..
though we are volunteers, we do get to eat a couple of snacks n food from the restaurant..
yummy they really were..
and before long, the whole activity was coming to an end..
thanks to the organisers..
i managed to arrive on time for my class gathering..
had dinner at Hans at close to 9pm..
with zhi jie, ms tan, gladys, pei ying, da ye, wei wen, elvin, christina, n hong tat..
had an enjoyable time..
n nice food..
but dinner is quite ex =(
had some photos taken too..^^

Sun: spend the whole day sitting by the computer..
doing my resume, cover letter, yr 1 & 2 results..
Sigh, hopefully all who submit their stuff to Mr Ong @ Wyeth will be granted a interview..
at least efforts are not gone down the drain..
okok, i admit that i did play a bit of games online..
but that was becos i can't concentrate anymore..
a much deserved break..heehee..
anyway, that's also the night the modem breaks down..
causing me to use the internal modem in my CPU which works at an amazing speed of 56kbs!!!
How FAST huh..??!
Modem!!!! Be operational ready ASAP k..I miss u..
NitEz..

=WiN=
PS: sigh, this post is still long..but i already tried my best to summarise it..
Btw, this post is sent by 56kbs modem..so my broadband modem is not fine yet..!! =(

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 12:21:00 AM