'~WoNdErFuL 2 ThOuSaNd 6..

Saturday, January 29, 2005
Survey...

For my project plm..
we need to do surveys for mothers/parents..
so naturally what better way to do them
than at the kk children and women's hospital??!

so after our plm meeting,
we proceed to kk hospital..
Initially we are shy and dare not conduct surveys..
but nisha is brave and did the first of the surveys..
thereafter giving us ourage to ask ppl to do survey..
it was funny taking surveys at hospital,
with the nurses giving all the strange looks at us..
and even one claim that she's the managing nurse(aka head of nurses)..
and say we needa permit b4 we can conduct any surveys..

Yea right, nursey..
i think u got sore becos we didn't survey u..
green eyes huh..
too bad..we just DUN like U!!!!!!!!!!

sigH,
my childhood experience is to become a doctor..
I saw a lot of aspiring doctors at the hospital..
all so young..and wear specs too..
sometimes i wonder if i made the right choice
the right choice in my future/career..
i wonder if i made any wrong mistake
in choosing my poly..but now..
i have no regrets about that..
becos i can do R&D on drugs..
assisting the doctors to fight diseases..
yup, indirectly, i'm a doctor???!

the past few days have been saddening..
with the unexpected news..
whenever i'm free
i will think of the smses..
i think i still can't reli let go yet..
it's just so hard to let it all go..
let it all go away..
time is not everything..
but i believe time can prove everything..
time can do wonders..
so pls, time..
heal my pains..
my agony..
my heartbreak..
my life..

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 10:24:00 PM

Wednesday, January 26, 2005
HaPpY oR NOT?????????

This morning..
I got this msg from the gal i liked..
asking me if i'm serious when i said i like her..
I'm surprised to receive such a msg early in the morning..
I thot i'm dreaming...
but the msg is still stored in my phone..Till now..
So, i'm not dreaming..

Though i wish to tell her immediately..
I sms to ask why she ask me that..
I thot that she had sense my real feelings for her
and were ready to accept me..
but she replied that becos our classmates
has been teasing about us being together..
so she wanna know the truth behind the teases..
She promised me that
she'll take whatever i'm going to tell her
as the truth..absolute truth..and she promised
it won't hurt our present friendship..
After much consideration,
i confessed that i still like her..
haven changed a single bit..
as long as she's happy, i'm ok..
then i wait eternal minutes before i got her reply..

Her reply was like a shot to my heart..
I feel like crying but i can't...
Cos my heart's crying aloud so much
that my eyes have no more tears to flow..
She may not be able to know it..
and i wish she never would have known..
She's the one i felt so deeply for..

Some of my friends have been consoling me..
thanks to u all..u know huh u're..
heartfelt thanks to u all...
i know i'm not alright now..
but i promised u all that i'll try to get over it soon..
give me time..
Time is what i need to heal these painful wounds..

We would be seeing each other tml..
I'm not sure how i gonna face her..
but somehow i just know that i need to be 'normal'
so it won't make her feel bad/sorry
about the stuff she told me today..
at least that's the least i can do for the one i like..
and wish her the best in her relationship..

WiN =_(

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 4:01:00 PM

Saturday, January 01, 2005
Resolutions: 2004 & 2005

Looking at my 2004 resolutions, i notice that i have actually meet some of the goals of them..haha, i'm so happy..

Well, i have 5 resolutions for 2004 :train for NS, spend more time with friends, treat my didi better, stay happy n cheerful from start till end of day, be more friendly..

Out of these 5 resolutions, i managed to fulfilled three of them, except the NS one..
Yea, if there's one thing i dread doing, that's exercise..

During the year, i notice some of my flaws which i have always been trying to hide..i'm not brave enough and i'm very dependent on people..dependent on people to tell me what i need to do..not brave enough to go on stage and speak..not creative enough..i have a lot of flaws which i should not possess as a gemini..i should be adventurous, daring/brave, outspoken etc..But instead i'm quite the opposite of these qualities..

So i hereby made a new set of resolutions for 2005:
1. Be braver
2. Be outspoken
3. Be creative
4. Be outgoing
5. train for NS

=win=

WiNter's FirsT Snowflake.. @ 10:29:00 PM